Day ONE

I have to say I do not like BLOGGER. I just spent about 15 or 20 minutes writing a long blog about the exploits of my first day only to have it disappear into nothingness. This never happens on myspace or facebook. i am PISSED.

My time is precious and I can't afford to waste it on technical glitches and writing oriented weblogs that aren't user friendly and easily eat the content you slave over. Not an auspicous start.


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All right I have now somewhat recovered from losing EVERYTHING I just typed. Since I don't feel like trying to painstakingly recreate every word that was lost I will just quickly hit the highlights:

1) I like drugs. I take a lot of drugs. Mostly tranquilizers and painkillers. I have migraines and suffer off and on from severe eye strain and intense orbital pain. I have insomnia related to a sort of generalized mild anxiety and a life-long problem with vivid, torturous nightmares and night terrors. To put it simply, I am too afraid of what I will dream to fall asleep at night. I also drink alot of caffeine, because I'm always tired and always craving a "lift." I am really hoping becoming a vegan will help me deal with these issues.

2) I have promised myself that I will at the very least take one LONG walk every day. I may not yet be able to participate in thrice weekly company ballet, modern, jazz, and pointe classes like I could in my heyday...but I have legs. I can walk. Blood pumping, oxygen going in, nature all around. Win-win.

3) I destest the suffering of any creature, be it of "lower" intelligence or lesser conciousness than I or not (and even this theory is debatable) and have also noticed that meat and dairy products do not taste like they used to. It is difficult to enjoy these products when they taste "off" and different than I remember them tasting in my youth and it is VERY difficult to enjoy them knowing that the animals that produce them are given chemically saturated feed and injected with an assortment of growth hormones to make them *bigger* faster and thus easier to slaughter for a quicker payoff. The pain, agony, and deprivation an animal goes through to bring me it's flesh or even it's milk is disturbing. Seriously. It really is. I'm a practical person, and I know vegan alternatives are rather expensive and hard to come by, but the suffering of these helpless creatures bothers me greatly. It just does.

4) I haven't had time to read "The Secret" yet because when I read for content and not for pleasure I require both silence and solitude. As soon as I have an adequate ammount of both I will get right on it. Changing the way I think is just as important to me as changing the way I eat and move. So I will try to read at least thirty or forty pages of this slim book by early next week.

All right, compared to the eloquence (I hope) of what I had written before this bullet list leaves much to be desired, but I have covered the basics of what I had, eh, for the most part.

Hey--it's a start!!